black-phantasy

2009-04-30T23:55:00.002+08:00

WOOOO. my blog's dead again. hurhur.
been busy these few weeks. =[
and no time for dbsk and junsuuuu D:
all thanks to xinying again haha.
got me addicted to dong bang with that heung heung vid,
then now restaurant city. LOL.

ANYWAY, THOSE who even happen to read this post :O,
and somehow plays restaurant city,
ADD ME K! I WANT FREE INGREDIENTS :D

Syf is on 6 may, which is like 6 more days?
omgomgomg.
but i think we're making goooood progress.
so now our percentage of the medals are as follows:
10+% bronze, 50% silver, 40% gold.
XD
wheeeee, i really think we maybe... just MAYBE, clinch a gold or something =D
whatever, we've worked hard.
thats enough. haha.

hmmm, just finished coffee prince for the 3rd time ever since it showed on air?
lala. i'm still in the kpop kraze mood.
and now im seriously thinking of taking both jap and korean in uni o.0

mmhm, okay thats enough crap for today.
i need to go back to my restaurant city. lol.
ADD ME ON FACEBOOK IF YOU PLAY RESTAURANT CITY.
wannchinn@hotmail.com

2009-03-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

Na WANLING! LOL.
here's the uber cool picture of jaejoong made up of yunho's picture ;O

2009-03-14T17:39:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy D:
cca, schoolwork, school stuff blah blah blah
=[
BUT I STILL HAVE TIME FOR DBSK =D
lol.
xiah junsu is thy love~ XD

2009-03-01T19:33:00.002+08:00

abt the answer that you want,
i think im not ready yet?
=X
i just want to concentrate on my studies now,
and leave eveything aside first.
at least, after i finish my A's or something.
i know you're always there for me,
and i really appreciate it.
you're always there whenever i'm down and all emo all those.
you have your studies too,
so let's work hard together first okay?

uhm, idk if i should say this but yea,
still lots of thanks for those little tiny weeny things that you did.
=D

2009-02-20T19:09:00.002+08:00

AHEM YAY!
orientation camp's over! =[
which means lessons are gonna start and all those D:
and i love my class :D
altho sometimes i get the feeling of wanting to dig a hole in the ground cause too enthu. LOL.
hmms, our class is reeeeeaaally hyper
which is nice? haha. i guess the OGLs and councillors will miss our class ;O
heard that one OGL cried because camp2 students were like =_______= boring. =X

shall blog about the camp today ;D
since i have co practice tmr and cip @bedok cc on sunday >_>

Day One:
ummm, my mum thought i had no school and sooo... i was late -.-
and then i was stuck at security post and the guard call me to call a tchr or the OM to let me go in ._.
the OM came and was like asking me why late,
then i was like, "Errr.. my mother thought i no sch so nvr wake me."
then he went blah blah blah and scolded me -.-
after he call me go off then the security guard was like telling me,
"Hey girl, dont take it to heart uh. He today abit bad mood."
-.-

amazing race and all those station games during the day.
WOO. hawk rocks =DDDD
partly i think because our class is in hawk. LOL.
had night walk too.
but the night walk was as expected.. boring. -.-
we were like split into 5/6 person one grp,
but every station we went, we had to like waiiiiiiiiittt.
._.
hmm after the nightwalk, the councillors were telling us that SOMETHING did happen during the nightwalk.
said that some grps encountered THOSE stuff.
cause we were suppose to like say "Bread" when we see other people walking around and if the person is one of TPJCians who are having camp, they will go "Butter".
so apparantly, some groups met those "people" that wouldn't and don't know how to respond. ;o
slept after the nightwalk and it was.... cramped. D:

Day Two:
Okay, so we have this morning exercise thing in the morning.
Did some warm ups and we were supposed to run round the track 3 laps while singing school song.
okay so we ran.
and everyone in Hawk was SINGING the school song LOUD and CLEAR.
but after the first lap and we stop to rest,
Steffi, whom is from Seagull, and apparantly shes the most notorious girl in the school >_>
said that "Okay, you guys did well but Hawk didn't sing."
Fuck you.
go dig your ears or something,
EVERYONE heard us singing.
We know that you're bias against Hawk-ers,
but isn't it abit TOO obvious.
okay, so all of us in Hawk were like "WTF?!" after we heard that.
i was quite mad, so i think i shouted quite loudly. ;O
LOL.
but anyway,
its sooo obvious the mood changed.
everyone in hawk went silent.
cause before that we were quite hyper and cheering all those.
then suddenly,
-----silence------
and everyone's faces were like.. -BLACK-
i think the OGLs also abit dunno what to do and tried to calm us down. >_>
and so after everyone was like shouting at her,
she went, "Oh SORRY that i said those words. blah blah crapshyt."
that was SOOOOOOO SINCERE of her.
even a dog can be more sincere than her.
hur.
so after that i was like freaking pekchek,
and for the first time in my whole TPJC life,
i ran three rounds round the track while screaming the school song and never stop.
so i guess,
anger can be turned into motivation?
LOL.
whatever, i dont really hate Seagull people,
but for goodness sake, get a better person to lead.

enough of that woman. >_>
so we had Orientation night for the second night.
OH YA,
i went home in the day halfway after lunch lol.
cause my cramps were like WOMGWTFBBQSAUCELKSDJW pain. T_T
this is my first time having mensus during camp and so pain ._.
so i went home and watched hana yori dango korean version LOL
then went back to camp around 8 plus.
and when i reach there, our skit which Hawk-ers are supposed to put up ended -.-
D:
okay, and then i think Phoenix performance had "NBCB" ;O
and Mr. Bala went up and reprimanded them about that.
that guy didnt do it purposely and it was on impulse i think,
but anyway, he also cry until veh jialat. =X
cause i think when everyone heard that everyone went O_O.
lol.

that rock band performance was =___________=.
this yr we couldn't do anything but standing there and cheer.
wtf? lol so boring. -.-
and they only sing two song jiu finish liao. >_>
srsly, i prefered last yr's orientation night.
WE WENT WILD CAN?
lol, maybe because i'm from Hera then Hera people went crazy that night.
WOOO ;3

Day Three:
Mhm, nothing much. haha
break camp le.
then went for ge yao after that.
haha.
and apparantly Wayne and some Poly guy who got into the Campus Superstar thing in the top few rounds or whatever volunteered to teach us or something ;O
they're students of Music Story luh.
didn't know that Wayne was the guy that sang with Xu Tao during the CCA Orientation thing until Yanfen and Ruiting told me o.O
then i was like.... WHOOOOOOA.
he and xu tao that day sing was like zao ying until siao can LOL
SOOOO BIG DIFFERENCE.
he sing okay luh, but i think the poly guy sing better.
and he's so much cuter than him. LOL.

got the namelist from xinwei and im gonna psycho J1s to join geyao tmr ba.
cause 90% were having camp 2 -.-
but anyway, im loving geyao more and more.

okay im hungry.
Orientation camp for this yr was okay tho,
although there were alot of unhappy events (eg: Steffi event) and the mass dance where two of our classmates pon-ded and almost got Hawk into trouble cause minus 200 points ;O
but anyway, my classs is really enthu and i like it ;D
woooo. go 09A06 =D

2009-02-15T14:01:00.002+08:00

sorry junhao,
im really sorry.
i didnt mean to vent anger on you ytd.
dont angry le k?
T_T
dont dao my msgs leiiii D:
and thanks for ytd,
it was reaaally sweet. =D
SORRY SORRY =[

2009-02-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

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2009-02-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

aye aye aye..
busy with vday/orientation stuff these few days =X
having co orientation tmr after sch.
so... yep im left with only one day to buy the gifts :OOO
im so dead. lol
was expecting alot or at least quite a number of juniors for this year..
but in the end, only like one can make it -.-
(excluding the two appeal guys)
rawwwr.
D:
okay, so tennis have like 100+ who signed up, but they're only choosing 20.
so 80+ ppl got rejected :O
guitar have 100+
band have 50/60+
choir have 30+
co have 30+
wow.
._.
the two performing arts cca that is in need of the most people ended up with the least people signing up.
-.-
haiii D:

srsly, im sorta worried for this yr syf.
i think quite a number of ppl still have the mindset of like,
"oh~ its only feb. still early luh."
>_>
hellooooo.
feb, mar, apr, may.
theres like only 10 weeks before the actual thing.
;O
each week have like 2 or 3 practices?
PLUS,
only like 1/5 of the people are MAYBE practicing by themselves at home or whatsoever.
oh yay, and we MUST get GOLD.
given the fact that we have like 7 instructors teaching us
lots of $$ spent by the sch.
and most importantly,
our dear ms helen choo is expecting BETTER results since we dont have any instructors for the past two years and we got silver.
how nice.

i just dont get why some are just so not anxious.
abit frustating ._.
perhaps its because that they've never experience something before,
so i dont really blame them.
but its just that i cant stand people complaining that the practices are long and tiring blah blah blah and that studies are SOOOOO fucking important that your MIGHTY brain can only STUDY and doing something else will rot your brains out or something.
Please luh, other ccas are having like 3 or 4 practices a week ALREADY.
and our practices are only gonna increase in a month or so.
if you dont want to practise until SO LATE or LONG HOURS,
then shouldn't you START TRYING to improve your own skills.
its for your own good in the end, like seriously.
the teachers arent gonna be the ones on stage,
its you.
when you make a mistake on stage,
you know it yourself and your confidence WILL be affected somehow,
and you'll start making even MORE mistakes.
everyone will be looking at you.
you reap what you sow, isnt it?
i sound like some freak. lawl.

but somehow,
i sincerely believe that EVEN those with background or whatsoever NEED practices.
perhaps with the background,
it may benefit one when they are learning,
so that it'll be easier and they can catch things faster.
but without constant practice,
whats the fucking point even if you know the stuff.
when you go up the stage, almost like 40% of the usual stuff you've practiced is confirmed gone due to stage fright or unfamiliar-ness with the environment.

when you know that you dont have any music background or whatsoever,
isnt it like all the more you SHOULD practise?
if you have what it takes with lesser practices,
and be at least 90% sure of what is happening throughout everything,
you'll be relieved yourself and not add MORE problems in the already-so-many-problems-situation.
einstein didnt complain about trying over and over again,
so why should someone who is having not-so-good qualities as compared to him complain about trying again and again?
try asking yourself if you even have the right to complain when you yourself is part of the problem and that you're not doing anything to solve it.

im venting alot today. lol
its just that some times i see some particular people that are oh-so-concerned about their own study stuff and keep nagging without even thinking that most of us are ALSO having the same worries and problems about studies and hw blah blah blah.
you do your stuff right and you have the right to nag.
isnt it?
its like abit selfish when you're only thinking about yourself,
and not trying to make things better without putting in more effort.
and at the end of the day,
you'll be cursing at the pathetic outcome
or whats worse is that both sides dont work out well.
so that one stone injured two birds instead of killing them and accomplishing the task. hur.
whatever. i think some things ive said dont make any sense lol.

hmm, i need to brush up on my skills too.
LOL.
-.-
D: i miss my old bass in CCHMS.
the sound of this bass sucks -.-
its like all kept inside. O.o sounds weird LOL.
whatever, more practices YAY? D;
im tiredddd.

OH YA,
and watched this jap show called メイちゃんの執事 aka Mei-chan no Shitsuji aka 我的帅管家.
ITS SO FREAKING NICE.
LOL.
the show is about this school for the uber rich daughters in those families,
and the school fee is about 1billion yen everyday. wtf? LOL.
plus they need to have this male housekeeper to serve them wherever and whenever in school.
during lesson, the teacher will be like "please turn to page 57"
and the male housekeeper are the ones that is flipping the textbooks whereas the girls just sit in their comfy sofa. LOL. WTH?

OMG.he's cuuuuuuuute. ;3

oh here's the male lead of this story.
uhhhhh, okay luh. lol not as cute as the one above, Takeru Sato.
=D
he's the nan-xue-zhang in hanazakari no kimitachi e (jap version)
._.
LALALA~
okay im off to bed. LOL.
im sleeeeeeeeepy.
D:

2009-02-07T12:05:00.003+08:00

okay. my blog's dying soon D;
gonna join my new class for the year starting from monday.
hmms, im quite excited actually.
and whooot, jasmine and xinying is in the same class as me.
our class combi is weird lol.
half of them are from theatre studies and drama aka tsd,
and the rest are taking cll/mll all those.
as expected, im the only one thats not taking econs at all. =D
i think im the only one in this school that doesnt take econs in arts class.
;O
so my new subject combination is confirmed? =D
H2 Chinese Language and Literature
H2 China Studies in English
H2 Mathematics
H1 General Studies in Chinese
so in short im taking, MCLLCSEGSC.
whoaaaaa.
ppl have like PCME. 4 letter nia.
i have 10 letters ;O
but anyway, i'm quite glad that im having this combi.
srsly, i think its useless for me to take econs anywayyy.
since im planning to go either to the faculty of arts and social science and take up jap as a minor/major OR the chinese department OR
NTU's faculty of communication and information which is like broadcasting and all those..
whats the use of econs in these you tell me -.-

my new class of the year, 09A06. ^^

AND THANKFULLY, Joshua's in 09A07.
but i have to see him everyday during morning assembly tho.
cause he's just nxt door. -.-
hms, looks like our class have like a few guys only also. haha
typical arts class ;X

anyway, my timetable for nxt week rocks.
Monday
8am-9am: P.E
9am-1pm:Break. ;OO 4hrs.
1pm-2pm: GSC then end of sch for the day -.-

Tuesday
9am-10am: CME -.-
11am-12nn: CSE and end of sch ._.

Wednesday
this day rocks. no lessons in the morning and im suppose to wait 4 hrs for my only lesson for the day.
12nn-1pm: CLL

Thursday
10am-11am: Maths
11am-2pm: Break. 4 hrs agn ;OO
2pm-3pm: CSE

Friday
8am-9am: Maths
9am-10am: GP
and yay, i have to wait 2 hrs more for the gate to open and
im done for this week.

i think im bringing my laptop to sch or something,
at least i can play audition or watch some drama during my 4hrs of breaks for the three days -.-
okay, im done ranting.
hurhur. ;D

i still dont get why the school slotted the 3D2N Orientation Camp the wk after.
its like.. so weird.
orientation camp after two weeks of school wth? lol
but somehow, i think the idea of CG camp is nice.
bonds us together at least =D
im actually okay with staying overnight in TPJC. ;O
quite alot ppl or to be exact, 99% dont want to stay overnight in sch.
LOL.
im weird.
but i like the feeling of staying late in sch and chatting with friends, wriggling in slping bags. LOL
._. sounds nice isnt it D:

hope my class will be full of enthu kias.
instead of those nerdy nerdy ones i've seen during the past few days -.-
alright, i'll stop here.
im excited for monday to come ;DD

2009-01-27T04:48:00.003+08:00

YAY. im addicted to CabalChronicle le. (p.server for Cabal)
LOOOL.
=D
and i wannnna watch korean hana yori dango ;OO
i miss my hyun joong T_T
nights ppl.
OH YA.
HAPPY LUNAR CHINESE NEW YEAR <3
GET LOTSA LOTSA $$ WHEN MAHJONG-ING/DAIDEE-ING/BLACKJACK-ING/ETC-ING K
hahahahaha =DD

2009-01-24T12:27:00.005+08:00

MUAHAHA.
my lappy is back.
:333
and i can watch my boys over flower again. ;DDDDD
KIM HYUN JOONG IS FREAKING SHUAI.
XD XD

CUTE RIGHT.
YOU TELL ME HE WHERE NOT CUTE.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i want to watch 大喜事 D:
the song is freaking nicee.
the plot like veh nice alsoooooooooooooo T_T

我們的愛 - 陳孟奇／姚惠敏
曲︰陳孟奇
詞︰吳慶康

女︰手交給你一生交給你
在你眼裡看見我自己
直到白頭誰都不會離棄
永恆看得見幸福在心底

男︰牽你手心相伴一世紀
我會永遠承諾保護你
直到我們連皺紋都老去
也會讓你開心不哭泣

男︰我們的愛沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

男︰我們的愛心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰手交給你一生交給你
在你眼裡看見我自己
直到白頭誰都不會離棄
也會讓你開心不哭泣

＊合︰我們的愛沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

＃合︰我們的愛心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰讓我看仔細
男︰永遠不要忘記
合︰所有好心情壞脾氣
苦與樂都珍惜

重唱＊,＃

合︰AVE MARIA

2009-01-22T15:04:00.002+08:00

oh yay.
school's so busy and tiring. D:
this is gonna be my schedule for these few weeks.
Monday: CO practice starting soon till 06 May
Tuesday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Wednesday: CO practice till 9pm
Thursday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Friday: CO practice starting soon too.
im so.... dead? thats when school starts. >_>
and i just found out that school officially starts on 2 Feb.
-.-
i thought it was 14 Feb D:
oh ya, thats valentines day too ._.
whatever, im looking forward to the orientation camp for the J1s actually.
LOL.
cause apparantly its gonna be a overnight camp or something.
wheeeeeeeeeee :3
i love overnight camps.
especially in tpjc, cause its not scary at all
-.-

decided to drop my H2 Economics.
so my new subject combination would be:
H2 Mathematics
H2 Chinese Language and Literature
H2 China Studies in English
H1 General Studies in Chinese
hurhur. i dont even know if the school offer this.
D:
but i reallllllly dont feeel like taking up econs again.
since im gonna go into NTU's faculty of communication and information
or something like that >_> (ie. mass communication. but abit chimmer. lol.)
so lets hope that theres a combination like mine.
SO CHEEEEEEEEEEEEENA.
but whatever, i like em ._.

i miss my laptop.
=[

2009-01-20T14:57:00.001+08:00

so... apparantly, i wont be able to see my laptop till early Feb. >_>
and my desktop is like %#$%@$^@3 slow. T_T
so im just gonna watch my BELOVED teebee for few more wks? wtfuck. -.-
the guy said that maybe the motherboard or harddisk got corrupted/virus-ed.
whatever luh. i dont understand LOL.
so its like $85.60 basic service fee (exclusive of the new motherboard/harddisk/whatever that needs to be replaced)
if i dont wna repair it after they tell me what i needed to change,
i gotta pay $48.50 for safe keeping it there for like 3 days =_=
rawrrrrrrrrr.
and now, im forced to use the school com and watch my korean hana yori dangooooooooo
D: D: D:
and no audi for weeeeeeks.
when there's the fucking sale on 22/1 =_=
AND MY GINGER IS GONNA DIE WITHOUT ME T_T

anyway, im not gonna be xin ruan anymore.
tho i still chat with him every night -.-
rawr. gimme timeeeeee okay? LOL.
but yea, im not interested anymore..... i suppose ._.
yepyep, jyjy to myself. ^^

i feel like a cave man now.
without modern technology like computerrrrrrr.
T_T
this sucks. rawr.
and this has to happen over the cny period when i'll be boooored to tears when the aunties and uncles talk talk talk.
but heng i working.
LOL.
i have CCA and some GP stuff on 28/1.
-.-
which means, im gonna go "poof" on that day.
LOL.
okay, enough of me ranting.
i need to watch my dramaa. ;D

2009-01-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

i thought i was ready,
to be brave once again and face up to the cruel reality.
i was just going to be cold and not give in.
but when i hear your voice,
i just cant do it.
you asked me not to cry,
but do you know how it feels hearing you say that?
it just feels like a knife stabbing a thousand times.
yet whats worse is that all the thoughts rushed up to my mind at that time.
somewhere deep,
im still missing you.
yet again,
something inside me is wanting to forget.
im just so useless.

sorry.

2009-01-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

so, everything ended for him.
and everything's gonna go haywire again.
i dont know what i should do.
srsly.
tell me what you want from me, please.

for some reasons, i was thinking about him today again.
im afraid i'll get soft-hearted.
im really afraid.
and i know he's not worth it.
but..... wtf?
=__________________= im confused.

please, stop affecting me anymore.

2009-01-14T01:19:00.004+08:00

DAMN.
CANT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
im alr doing my part by ignoring everything.
yet you just pop out of nowhere and spoil my mood and everything.
accusing me of things that i didnt do.
i've never been accused for the whole of my 18 yrs.
who the fuck you think you are?
jie said you're blind, seriously, you are.
whatever, just take it that i went around spreading THINGS about her.
for fuck's sake,
do you think i'll be srsly interested in those kinda bitchy stuff?
that do-it-out-of-jealousy-stuff.
>_>

please, if you dont trust what i say.
just take it that i'm the one doing it.
theres no point in ASKING me if i did it.
yea sure, you were just ASKING about it.
im sorry i cant ignore what you're accusing me about.
i hate that kinda feeling that im trying to escape if i just leave it as it is without explanations.
so just get out of my life,
and go live happily-ever-after.
stop bothering me about such childish stuff.
use yr brain and think it through, at least, before ASKING me about it.
im sick of explaining.

JUST FUCK OFF AND STAY OUT.

2009-01-13T21:23:00.006+08:00

1.Who's the person that tagged you?
Yolanda and Cas >_>

2.Relationship between you and her?
Wives. (note: it ends with s, yces, im two-timing. ^^)

3.Three impressions of her?
Yolanda: MY BELOVED. ;3
Cas: WEIRDO. LOOOOOL.
oh, x3 for both comments LOL.

4.If she becomes your enemy, you will?
go to Cas's corner and kick her ass and snatch away her spot. LOOOL.
then i'll draw squares :3

5.What will you say to the person you like very much?
you suck. then give them a kiss. LOL.

6.Characteristics I lyk abt myself?
i like myself for hating myself. o_O

7.Characteristics I hate abt myself?
i hate myself for liking the hateful me.
LOL. wtf i talking ._.

8.For the person whom you hate, you say?
i love you. so fuck off and go emo in one corner.

9.What do people feel abt you?
loved by me. LOL.
ask them luh. ask me for whaaaat >_>

10.your crush?
which idiot will be so dumb to write that down.
i crush you like crush paper then u know. >_>

11.Pass this to 10 people
1. yolanda LOL.
2. casandra >_>
3. michelle
4. sihwee
5. junhao (no blog also can luh hur. LOL)
6. lynette
7. ruiting
8. ee teng
9. jasmine
10. singyee jie

12.If 5&7 were together?
WTF? LOL ;O

13.Who does 5 like?
;O me. LOOOL ;3 -shy-

14.What does 9 like?
baking o_o

15. Say something about 8?
aliennnnn~~~

16. Who is 2?
can't you read. it says "Casandra". LOL.
an idiot tho. LOL

17.Talk abt 3.
man u suck. ;D

18.Who is 10's best fren?
LOL. IDK. O.O
have me jiu enough le LOOOOOOL.

19.Who is sexiest among all?
no one. i'm the sexiest.

20.What colour does 4 like?
LOL IDK. brown? HER BAG ALL BROWN.

21.Is 4 single?
i think so O.o

22.Your relationship with 1?
my wife. <3

23.Are 5&6 best frens?
uh no. LOL. lynette hates junhao for snatching me away. LOL

24.9's surname?
oh~

25.7's nickname?
ruiting lor. LOL

26.Say something to 8.
dont miss me too much girl ;3

27.say something to help 9.
lets meet tgt everyday. LOL

28.Who does 1 admire?
her beloved. which is me. and not that 1-day-older guy D:

29.Where does 1 live?
yr house. >_>
DUH. HER HOUSE LUH.
oh i know!
25/35/45 joo chiat avenue. I FORGOT LOL.

30.10 of them know who you like?
IDK. LOL. i dont even know the answer myself. >_>

31.Say something to 6 when you see her.
lyneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeete. lol

32.10's spouse?
;O WSP. LOOL.
my jie fu :3

2009-01-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

school was uh entertaining? LOL.
did some activities luh. not bad. hurhur.
tmr's career guidance talk. woooooooooomg.
=_________=
shyt.

gonna start on dramas/animes again. LOL.
was busy with other things during the past few wks -.-
sian, thought of him again.
im super useless sia.
but nvm, time is gonna heal all wounds.
>_>

I WNA WATCH SKIP BEAT.
=[

2009-01-12T17:00:00.004+08:00

oh gawd, fuck all this shit.
got accused for something which i didnt do right after i woke up this morning
by him. (yes, again.)
wtf?
such a NICE way to start off my day hur.
i suppose she said something to him.
whatever. i dont care anymore.
im sick and tired of all this.
take it or leave it.
its up to you to believe if I'VE DONE whatever you think i did.

went back CCHMS just now to see yol and sihwee.
=X
and i fell down foyer stairs when i was about to call daddy. -.-
(think it's sprained too. rawr.)
daddy is suayyyyyy D:
then after that yol went for their class outing and i went home
so tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
woke up at 6am today. =[

gonna go for school again and.....
MOTIVATIONAL TALKS.
wtf.
belief in yrself, have a visioooooon.
crap stuff. lol.

gonna have roller blading session on friday. wtf?
LOL. -.-
then lessons from 19jan-30jan.
-.-
bo wei gong sia.
siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

=[
school sucks.
life sucks.
audi sucks more.

2009-01-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

school tmr.
WTFUCKOMGBBQSAUCE.
=________________________________=.
school sucks. like seriously.
=[

2009-01-11T10:46:00.003+08:00

happy, or sad. idk.
im just going on with the flow right now, seriously.
my heart isnt feeling anything but ups and downs.
gotta pick myself up!

我还想他 by JJ 林俊杰

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉他我不爱他
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉他 ~~我还想他~~
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

apparantly i did something foolish.
told him lots of hurting words in the morning in reply of what he msged me ytd nite -.-
never thought he'd see that mega so i was abit shocked when he said goodluck to me so i nvr reply.
._.
whatever. its good that he hates me (apparantly he's not -.-)
this way he can go be lovey dovey with ~~her~~
and i can go on. hopefully.

"恨总比爱容易放下"
hmm, wonder how true is that.
i think shud be "恨总让爱容易放下"
lul.
he wont have to worry about me (i wonder if he even will >_>)
and can concentrate on her.
i know its hard to forget one that you truely love,
so i decided to give up.
it sorta felt like im being the third party, like wtf.
and it sucks hardcore.
fuck all this shit.
im gonna move on and stop thinking about hiiiiiimmmmmm.
i have to. D:

tq jia jun for being there for me ytd ;D
srsly, i didnt think about anything but banglahs and indians. LOL.
you got my mind off those kinda stupid stuff for quite some time. ^^
until it all started again. -.-
yr fault. rawr. :P
k, just joking lol.
having mood swings luuuuuh. D:

AND NOW, IM IN PAIN.
stomach cramps >_>
wtf. wtf. wtf.
thats why i came home from my auntie's house.
D:

gonna audi now.
jie's alone in audi LOL.
thanks guys.
i love my friends. <3

2009-01-10T19:30:00.003+08:00

why isnt things going back to normal this time round?
i thought it'll be okay once i wake up just like the previous times..
i miss you.
i really miss you.
i want you back in my life.
those morning calls, late night chats,
even those things we did tgt.
everyone around me says that you're a bastard.
i hate myself. really.
why cant i just stop thinking about it but keep crying
whats the use of crying? huh?

you said you're gonna prove to me your love the first time.
i've seen it.
and you gave me the courage to trust again.
im sorry i told you that we should just forget it since you're worrying about her stuff.
i didnt treasure that chance.
and im regretting alot.

why are you going back to her
even though you know shes just playing a fool with you?
yesterday night was hell for you and i know it.
i really dont want you to be all fucked up and be in the middle.
thats why i said that im okay if you dont mind getting hurt by her.
i thought lieing to myself and you would be best for us.
i didnt know it would hurt this much this time round.
and i dont know why is everything happening like this.
i am missing you so much right now.
and i just realised how much you've taken up my life within such a short period of time.
i let you in my heart and its being torn apart every second now.

jie told me that i should just blame that the timing wasnt right.
our love hasnt stablized when everything happened.
and its true to a point.

i dont care about everything now.
i dont care if you're using me.
i dont care if you're just lying to me and fucking around with me.
i dont mind waiting till you get all hurt and your heart dies because of her.
i want to share everything with you.
i want to be with you, cry with you, suffer with you.

sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.

im really grateful to cas and jie for yesterday.
if they're werent there,
i would have just gone crazy.
just like now.
i know you guys care for me,
but i cant do anything to help myself.
it really hurts.

i love you i love you i love you.
i know you wont be able to read this stuff that i want to tell you,
but dont have the courage to.
i'll always be waiting.

2009-01-09T09:13:00.002+08:00

alright, gonna change my ign to Marlboro-Ice
xD
wedding todayyyyyyyyyyyyy too.
(around midnight? i think. lol)
^^

2009-01-06T10:00:00.005+08:00

went kbox with lynette they all.
LYNETTES MOTHER QIA WOR. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL
KBOX LEI. WOMG.
SO EX =_=
you qian ren jiu shi you qian ren D:
sang till 5 nia then went to look for deardear =S

sat mrt to bukit batok then we're supposed to take bus to cathay o_o
LOL.
WAHPIANG.
so fucking long. -.-
but okay luh, at tiong bahru there got this couple come up.
then THE GIRL VEH FIERCE.
at first they talk talk nia.. then suddenly,
the girl was like #$%#$^$%^$ @the guy O_O
then everybody STARE at them.
then the girl cryyyyyy. D:
pity the girl, but i think the guy more kelian.
=_=

met darling at bb mrt control station.
=D
sat bus to dhoby ghaut and watched bedtime stories.
BUGSY IS CUTE ;3333333333333333333333
and deardear's eyes look like bugsy.
LOL. so big >_>
can pajia0 somemore.
laugh until i want die. =X

after that walkkkkkkkkked from
cathay>esplanade>singapore flyer>bugis>lavender
WHOA. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE WALK SO FAR.
LOL.
i love darling ;3

I TELL U.
ESPLANADE ROOF TOP IS @#$@#%
TMD DE SO FUCKING NICE.
LOL.

after that ton at lavender de lan.
cause bugis de full -.-
RAWR.
and ta-da! i'm back home now. at 9 plus.
O.o
gonna meet darling and yol and sihwee at parkway later ba.
maybe gonna go east coast de lan? LOL.
wahlao, veh no life.
LOL.
and im meeting yol at 3 plus.
PLEASE DONT TELL ME IM GONNA TON FROM 3pm-6am
=____________=

took a few pictures. LOL.
really is a few nia. -.-
cause.............. my phone sucks >_>

anddddddddddddddd
singapore flyer.
;D
i just looooooooooooove this place now. ;33

darling de chinese is tok-gong. -.-
i bwg. LOL
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
im uber uber uber uber uber happy.
;3

05.01.09
<3333

I WANTED 09.01.09.
BUT ITS DUMB. LOL
STILL HAVE TO WAIT.
D;
nvm. i love darling ;3

2009-01-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

i ish sick. D;
-coughs coughs and more coughs-
-.-
tmr is a happy day.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
;33

okay im mad i think.
there's one thing that i want to do by 2009:
1) climb into cchms with sihwee and yol and ton audi there.
LOL.

D: i think it'll be funnnnnnnnn. uber fun. D:

2009-01-03T03:39:00.003+08:00

2nd/3rd day of the year.
mixed feelings.
>_>

ate too much barbeque stuff for the past few days i guess.
im gna be sick soon ._.
i almost sneeze out my nose and lungs today D:

fahrenheit's album is WHOA.
almost like all 10 songs are nice.
^^

sleep. nights.
gonna give him a morning call tmr. ;3

2009-01-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

chalets countdowns sleepless nights
omg. im dying. D:
went for cldds chalet. veh fun ;D
mmhmmm,
after that came home half dead =.=
den talk to yol and decided to go her house countdown
LOL.
yep, so i went.
then halfway mich shulin and cas come and stalk us.
=[
supposed to watch twilight tgt but ended up watching dead silence.
i think the movie still okay,
actually not veh scary (thanks to michelle) LOL.
and yay, all 5 of us spent the night tgt on the bed.
;O FIVESOME LOL.
michelle just came yol's house to sleep i tell u >_>
like pig lidat. keep kicking yol's butt rofl.
tired out but heyyy, its funnnnn XD
andddd
i gave my another first to yolanda teo.
LOL
first time stay over lidat with alot friends on the beds. LOOOLL.
okay veh fun. i lazy to blog about details and
im gonna go sleep now.
three nights without sleep. OMFG.
nights ppl. ;3

2008-12-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

went klearcuts to cut my hair today with grace
I TELL YOU THERE CUT VEHHHHHHH GOOD. LOL
far east, 3rd storey i think.
and its damn cheap (cause student price mar)
20 bucks niaaaa. ;D
and got the people there damn funny and entertaining. LOL
shall upload the pics later on ba.
i didnt take a side view de D:
and ish lazy to take now. LOL

i went out with my contacts today.
muahahaha.
wahpiang, you know i start 10am try put in
and FINALLY AT 12NN I SUCCEEDED.
2 hours. wtf?
1st time maarrr cannot blame me. LOL
but i also think 2 hours abit long haha =X

walk walk in orchard
and we kept trying on clothes LOL
FAN ZHENG SHI MIAN FEI DE. LOL
okay i ish like my hair alot alot now ;33

took some neoprints at cine.
my scanner spoil D: cannot upload neoprints RAWR.
and grace computer spoil but her scanner working.
lmao =.=
nvm ba. i'll think of same ways eventually. LOL

gonna go for chalet tmr and staying till last day of 2008 <3
AND IM BRINGING MY LAPTOP THERE.
i cant live without my beloved lappy =[[[
okay thats all luh.
im lazy. hahaha. =D

2008-12-29T00:02:00.004+08:00

I've gotten my contacts.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ <3
BUT the fucking lens dont seem to go onto my pupil =.=
WHYYYY D;
i open my eyelid top and bottom le
den the opening just nice is my pupil
and when i try to blink a little the lens get stuck outside my eye
wtf. -.-
cant even fit inside
D:

RAWR. IM PEKCEK NOW.
=[
gonna meet grace tmr to cut her hair with her -.-
nothing much today.
still... i r sad =[

okay i swear im not gonna marry a small eye guy.
if not i think our children cannot wear contacts D:

2008-12-27T22:33:00.002+08:00

aight, just reached home.
went to watch yes man with junhao.
ITS OKAY LUH.
i nvr laugh lei. why ah -.-
everybody laughing D:
i think im saddist. LOL.
cause last time watch ip man hitting scenes i laugh =_=
nvm. LOL. i ish unique. ;3

today veh lucky i think LOL
u know we bought tics that time,
the guy dunno what happen
count us 16 bucks nia.
then i was like eh? not 20 meh after that.
AND JUNHAO WENT BACK TO THAT GUY
TOLD HIM THAT HE COUNT LESS -.-
WTF. lol
4 bucks is not much luhh but 4 bucks D:
$$_$$
i sound evil sia. haha
nvr mind, being honest ish gooooood ;D
(cause also not my moneyyy lol)

AND OMG I TELL U.
MY ARCADE BASKETBALL IS ZAI.
HAHAHHAHAHA.
i won 2 sibei ah lian de girl luhhhh.
they every sentence is like WHOOOAAA.
lol. i think their ancestors and all generations de grand-grand-grand father mother all come out already. LOL.
and i think they're basketball players
MUAHAHAH
so yayyyyy, im freaking happy.
HAHA.
okay, i wannnna go sing k again.
RAWR.
gonna audi le. yolanda is cui-ing me D:

2008-12-27T01:57:00.005+08:00

watched twilight @ e!hub today with eeteng and ruiting.
SO PATHETIC.
only left us 3 nia. D;
okay luh, movie not bad. haha
cause i nvr read the book (^^y)
OMG I THINK THAT ERIC IN THE MOVIE SRSLY LOOK LIKE WANG REN FU.
just that he speaks proper english LOL
hmm Justin Chon is his name.

vs

SIMILAR RIGHT. WOMG.
THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE IM LIKE STARING AT WANG REN FU
THAT SPEAKS ENGLISH. =__=
and and and he looks abit like Lee Junki also LOL

vs

YOU TELL ME THEY DONT LOOK ALIKE?!?!
RAWR. lol.

And here, he looks like qi yu wu (戚玉武)

vs

LOL. I THINK HIS FACE IS MULTI-PURPOSE DE.
LOOK LIKE SO MANY PPL SIA

but eh, he's still cute. LOLOLOL.
see see!!! -points above-
hahaha. ;3

okay, downloaded wang lee hom and luo zhi xiang album today.
saw this KenT guy. (new singer ba)
OMFG. I THINK HE NOT BAD LEI.
HAHA

he sing also not bad. abit like tank tho. hahaa

okay, i shall stop eating flower today.
;DDD
BUT I THINK KENT AND THAT JUSTIN CHON IS CUTE.
HAHA.

2008-12-26T03:31:00.005+08:00

n_n ish Lv 14 and 16 % ;D
ZOMG.
IM DYING. LOL

gonna go catch twilight with eeteng they all.
womg.. $_$ again.
D;

MR. SANTA;
IF YOUR COMING FOR XMAS THIS YR AND WNA GIVE ME A PRESENT,
GIVE ME A MACHINE THAT PRINTS MONEY.
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER I PROMISE!! :333

gosh. =[
i need sleeeep or i'm gonna be late tmr. haha
nights peeps.
AND MERRY XMAS. O_O

2008-12-25T09:54:00.005+08:00

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE! ;D
mmhm, just reached home =_=
IM TIRED. LOL.
met junhao and went marina square to watch movieeeeeee.
"The Day the Earth Stood Still."
sucked, i tell u >_>
okay i think the effects were like WHOOAA.
budden the storyline like no storyline =.=
i dont like the ending part.
it just like suddenly stop den tell you its the end of movie.
wtf? lol
and some idiot slept through the movie ._.
so its THAT boring. lol
yay! 10 bucks flewww~ D:
but heng not mine. LOOOOL.

finished around 10 plus ba.
den junhao's mother called him and ask him go back home -.-
to celebrate xmas tgt with his family blah blah >.>
and and and
THEY'RE EATING TURKEY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
LOL.
okay so i shun bian also tag along lor. haha
free turkey anyways ;D

reached his house.
WLAO. LIKE NEW YEAR LIDAT.
have those uncles aunties everywhre
and they're playing mahjong wth -.-
i think best part was the countdown.
TMD HIS HOUSE CLOCK SLOW 10 MINUTES SIA
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
cause we were like gathered around the table before that den chit chat what.
then suddenly we heard like "MERRY XMAS!!" from the neighbourhood or smthing.
everyone were like "Whoa! So fast. also havent 12."
den his brother check his hp he said already 12.
=___=
den suddenly everybody so jing zhang. HAHAHA.
but it was uber fun tho. ;D
CAUSE I WON AT THE MAHJONG WHEN I DIDNT EVEN KNOW.
LOL.

heng junhao know how to count blah blah blah >.>
i think im suuuuper lucky.
beginners luck ;D

movie marathon after that.
watched Wall-E.
OMG. SO CUTE~~ ♥♥♥
then after that was..
Shutter.
WTF. LOL. HIS BROTHER IS MAD.
WHRE GOT PPL SUDDENLY CHANGE TYPE OF MOVIE DE.
heng i watch before so not that scary.
and junhao fall asleep again.
WLAO EH. he really is cannot watch movie de.
=__= waste money nia.
but hmm, i think i halfway through also slept.
cause i woke up a lil and its some xmas movie.
Haha. then i go back sleep again -.-

just woke up 8 plus den everyone was slping in the living room.
with the teevee on. LOL.
den his mother wake us up chase us home D:
then i rmbr that i forgot to tell my mother =.=
i just told her i going countdown nia and will take taxi home
._.
heng she go work le. T_T
she sure kill me de. 34 missed calls. =.=
okay, so his brother fetch me home.
WHEEEEEEE~
he drive damn scary
worse than my father.
the meter like nothing lidat.
100+ LEH. WTH.
okay luh, i think dun have 100 plus LOL
sg whre can run until 100 plus
>.>
but veh veh scary jiu dui le. =X

I LOVE MY DORAEMON PLUSHIEEEEEEEE =DDD
REALLY IS SOFT UNTIL LIKE WILL MELT.
<333 TQ JUNHAO =DD

and i think singtel is lagging.
CAUSE TONS OF MSGS ARE COMING IN. WTH. =_=
okay, i shall go brush my teeth etc.
and go sleep a while ba ;D
NIGHTS PEEPS.
AND MEEEERRRRYY XMAS!!

2008-12-24T11:26:00.002+08:00

hmmm, teo heng was fun yesterday.
but behind like abit tired. LOL.
ate 328 katong laksa and pp after that.
wahlao, samsam lam forever there de lei =_=
and HE FORGOT MY NAME WTF.
he called me wanchiu -.-
wtfwtf.
then yol dey all laughing like siao >.>

Thanks for the presents mich, qm and yol ;DDD
Especially yol.. LOL.
Soo many stuff =X

changed my ign to n_n yesterday.
audition is ghey.
x_x was taken.
x__x was taken.
x___x was taken.
x_____x was taken.
T_T also taken.
T__T same.
T____T same.
O__O same
O____O same
wtf??????
neh mind, i like my new ign now.
tq yolanda <3

wheeee im going to sneak bedtime stories laterrr
this wk is a movie wk for me.
AND I R BROKE. D;
thanks to my O_O rawwwr.
hai D:
i r sad.
k, thats all for now. lol

2008-12-23T04:25:00.004+08:00

aye. my audition account got banned.
=__________________=
-RiP-SpRiTx or w/e..
im gonna fuck you inside out and outside in the nxt time i see you.
RAWR.
and thus, i'm a lv 12 freedom nub named kAkAsHiX or whatever.
lol. its yol's nub account ;D
i trained 3 lvs in like 2 hours kk? =DD
I NEED @CASH TMR. WOMG.
SPONSORS ARE UBER WELCOMED. ^^ LOL.

Asiasoft is clvr in its own way.
105S$ (USD 73.50$) to unban my account -.-
which ~~idiot~~ will do that lmao.

OMG. I JUST WANT MY BUDDYLIST BACK.
FUCK.
dang, im gonna go slp.
exciting day tmr tho.
going teo heng with mich, qm, kenneth and yol.
<3
nights peeps.

2008-12-22T02:39:00.002+08:00

Seriously, i dont like it when it comes to night.
all those stupid thoughts will come back. rawr.
mmhm, audi-ed for almost half the day.
Whee~ i'm Lv 21 now :3
wont be going out tmr >.>
so yay? can save money abit lol

oh yay? xmas is coming in 3 days time.
that was supposed to be ~~our~~ anniversary.
._.

Life's full of unexpected surprises,
that may just bring you up to heaven,
or swing you down to hell.

If only we could predict what's is going to happen..
or turn back time. hurhur.
how silly.

2008-12-21T01:16:00.006+08:00

OMFG. nxt wk is a buuuuusy wk =_=
22,23,24,26 and maybe 27 im booked.
wtf? LOL.
shyt. i need $_$.
T_T

469. fuck. -.-
i think im just not used to it for now.
it became a habit alr u know =.=
whatever.

hmmmm, yol made me post this on my blog.
>.>

2008-12-20T09:51:00.001+08:00

whoa. i woke up at 3.16am sia =.=
LOL WTF.
den went back slp again. just woke up now
mmhmm, a new day. ^^
and.. i'm alright.

thanks for the memories for the past few days.
i was really really enjoying myself.
haha.
still friends i hope?
dont you dare block me on msn i tell u. LOL
i'll kill u >.>
nah, you know i wont. ;D

i love you yolanda <3
sorry abt ytd, i really didnt want you to worry about me.
and u know, i keep thinking about that olvl chinese day =_=
i think if i hear yr voice i'll cry like that day
=______=

thank you mr. lim.
wlao, whre got ppl slp so early de la.
still blame me sia.
lidat ppl will have xin ling chuang shang you know?
LOL.
but k la, you're good at comforting.
you really should have gone psychology =_=
and thanks for the 10k cash. LOL.
i really was jk nia at that time =X

i hate jay chou now.
or rather, i hate 说好的幸福呢.
-.- the lyrics and the tune..
wl, i got nothing to say sia. >.>

ytd jiahui msg me.
say he tell her he got posted to paya lebar airbase.
wtf. tell me for whaaaat. =.=
somemore, i was watching movie sia.
$^@$!#%!&^
abit spoil my mood. rawr.

wooooohoo~
I WANT TO WATCH OMFGSOMANYMOVIES ><
1) 赤壁 II
2）Bedtime Stories
3) Ong Bak II
4) Twilight (going with eeteng they all. heh)

AND OMG.
bedtime stories have sneak preview today =-=
i wannnaaa watch D:
but okay luh, ytd de ip man also vehh nice haha.

school is starting on 12 jan.
^@#%!!#!%$#

I WANT SING K AGAIN.
IDC. >=[
whoa i veh qi dai 30-31dec de chalet sia.
hahahaha. first time countdown at chalet =.=
so mountain tortoise. but but but
i think it'll be fun with ruiting they all.. haha

lots of things happened during this yr de holidays.
haha. =X
okay its over.
learn to let go girl ;D

i'm really proud of myself today.
hurhur ;D
or isit that im not a normal girl. -.-
ah whatever. haha.

nobody book me today sia.
that idiot also not free =[
but okay luh, now dont feel like going out also.
l-a-z-yyyyy.
today is rot-at-home day :3

2008-12-19T22:53:00.006+08:00

IP MAN IS NICE. GO WATCH. NAO.

2008-12-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

469 3275464 =[

2008-12-18T11:57:00.004+08:00

told darling some stuff today.
really didn't expect a reply from him @_@
you know for that msg i've been thinking about it for like the whole night =_=
but whatever, it's over now. :DD
i'm loving you soo much day by day sia.
omfg. <333><
hai~
so must wait till sat den can see darling -.-
#%!#!@#%

ILY DEARDEAR.
i mean it. =D

浪漫爱 by 江语晨
耳机里的情歌装听不懂
知道你会一直为我颠簸
任性的要求你从没烦过
谢谢你我一直说不出口

请太阳就停在这片草地
让我的幸福发芽到云里
要长久就不能腻在一起
这是谁说的鬼道理

就爱这样的你不用太多道理
牵着我的手一起到黎明
傻傻的看着我说你有多爱我
这感觉已足够

牵我的手我知道你会带着我向前走
我不需要天长地久的承诺
只要你每天都想着我
一遍两遍三遍四遍不嫌太多
跟着我走双脚踩在沙滩上映着感动
我不需要海枯石烂的温柔
只要你每天都属于我
全心呵护我保护着爱你的我

请太阳就停在这片草地
让我的幸福发芽到云里
要长久就不能腻在一起
这是谁说的鬼道理

就爱这样的你不用太多道理
牵着我的手一起到黎明
傻傻的看着我说你有多爱我
这感觉已足够

牵我的手我知道你会带着我向前走
我不需要天长地久的承诺
只要你每天都想着我
一遍两遍三遍四遍不嫌太多
跟着我走双脚踩在沙滩上映着感动
我不需要海枯石烂的温柔
只要你每天都属于我
全心呵护我保护着爱你的我

跟着我走双脚踩在沙滩上映着感动
我不需要海枯石烂的温柔
只要你每天都属于我
全心呵护我保护着爱你的我

2008-12-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

went with mummy for her health checkup shun bian did some blood tests for idk why -.-
wahlao, i hate hospitals.
stayed there frm morning till like 4 plus
WOMG. =_=
went plaza sing AGAIN after that.
bought some stuff blah blah blah.
but i was messaging darling :D
so its not that bad ^^

promised him that i'll go meet him when i'm done actually..
den he suddenly reminded me of junhao =_=
heng sia, i totally forgot about fetching him at airport.
LOL.
but darling was disappointed? D:
i know i shouldn't have broke our promise in that sense
but i think i owe junhao alot =X
since he's the one who's encouraging and all those when i was down.
plus his parents are still overseas and he came back to sg alone
and i promised him earlier before that i'll go fetch him le..
if pangseh him like abit shuo bu guo qu D:
soo...... omgomgomg i'm soo uber sorry. x.x
=((((((

father came to fetch us home so i used the com a lil while..
blog hopped a lil.
and yep, t2 after that.
wtf. luckily i was clever enough to take cab -.-
hmm, waited for that idiot for like so !@#$ long.
rawwwwr.
whee~ had sakae for dinner. haha his treat :D
after that we both tired already so he sent me home.
haha =X and i still feel bad to darling D:
was thinking about him during dinner but i think junhao also know i msging him just now.
abit paiseh. lol ><
cause just now ignored him all the way and keep msging haha
so in the end just concentrated on eating o_o

i think we really have some sort of telepathy or whatever crap.
i swear i was about to msg him and i saw "1 new msg"
omfg. kowaiiii~
but it makes me happy too lol x.x
the little things he said can just bring me up to heaven.
i think im loving him more and more by the day.

wheeee~ and theres no lights out for him LOL.
abit dumb luh but i thought he would have lights out and like 20+ minutes everyday with me nia
henggg. :D
really glad that he's understanding for today
omg i love you darling ^^
muacks muacks <3

2008-12-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

woke up arnd noon ba
msged gary and he woke up like arnd same time as me?
lol! i still think veryyy.. scary. =X
we sooo damn alike can?

rotted at home with him today :D
he pei me audi until 5+?
really had loootsa fun today ^^
everything just seems to be interesting with him around. ><
i still have the feeling that i'm like dreaming in lala land~
cause everything just seems so real, yet unreal o_o
okay, i sound like blabbering nonsense.

mmhm, steamboat dinner today.
nothing much actually >.>
went tampines mall and walk walk see got anything to buy ornot
and came back home, here i am blogging.

still rmbr the first time uhh we spoke
and i was telling yol that he's soo @!%#$ alike to ryo.
not only appearance but he also in ns =_=
i was like abit shocked? =X

haha but liao jie more le jiu different le.
we're both special and not-special in that sense :D
srsly, i've never ever thought of knowing someone that is SO SIMILAR to myself.
fate? lol. maybe ba xD
anyway, i just know that im uber uber uber happy these few days ^^

somehow, i dont know if im ready for another new start.
@_@
im scared that the same things will happen again. =X
rawrr! so, just 顺其自然 ba.
thinking back, sometimes i really hate ~~him~~.
i know i shouldnt be like this, thinking of the past and not moving on
but its hard.. you know?
i get reminded of the same things every now and then -.-

im scared that all these blissful things thats happening right now will just disappear out of the sudden someday.
>.<
scared of being thrown at a side and ignored again?
its like dying without even know what caused my death.
its really hurtful and left a scar unknowillingly.
if i have a choice, i'd rather nothing happened at all.

girl, move on!! rawr. D:
he doesnt even care about you anymore. hurhur?
okay whatever, im not gonna think abt it anymore.

._.
just hope that everything turns out right this time round.
thanks for everything :D
i think you're the best xmas present i've got for my entire 17 years.
xD
omgomgomgomg. im going crazy. =X

2008-12-16T03:31:00.002+08:00

yepyep. sang k with sihwee, yol, shulin and cas at teoheng from 1-7pm.
O_O WHEEE~
dinner@parkwayparade kfc.
nothing much =X

OH! I ALMOST FORGOT.
SIHWEE'S A BIANTAI.
SHE WENT INTO THE TOILET AND OPENED THE CUBICLE DOOR WHEN ANOTHER WOMAN WAS SQUATTING DOWN.
LOL.
=X
SO MALUUUUUUUUUUUUU LA. HAHAHA

and and and, we saw mr samson lam@parkway.
he's the co-partner of ameba. =_=
I STILL THINK HE GOT THAT WRAP PRESENT FACE. LOL

audition. womgwomgwomgwomgwomg.
imagine there's someone that just like you out there..
who have the same interests..
and both of you like the same things..
everything just happened so fast.
and ta-da, you're all happy and excited.
LOL. sounds wrong x.x
but anyway,
i've never thought of meeting someone like this.
=X
its like uuhhh drama? o_o

okay, i have no idea what im talking about.
but im really veh happy. LOL
wheeee~

2008-12-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

funeral early in the morning. wtf?
i woke at 6am!! $#%!#!@$!%@
went to collect my phone with yol todayy
wheeee~ she pei me go =D
met cas and shulin at cathay LOL

went to and fro from cathay and ps again =.=
AND AND AND
I gave my first time to cas and shulin and yol LOL
sounds wrong. xD
cause we went bunk and played for an hour while waiting for mich
WE SAW AN ACCQUANTAINCE.
-PerfectKenx3 or whatever shyt.
LOL. HE VERY WEIRD.
he go bunk, toot toot stare at screen nvm
HE BROUGHT ONE FATASS BACKPACK FULL OF DUNNO-WHAT INSIDE.
den he put under table =________=
it was a fun experience tho ;D

dinner@kopitiam with mich's parents -.-
then arcade. and went back ps AGAIN.
lol

sat bus no. 7 home,
and ta-da! here i am now after bathing =DDDD

WHEE. WE'RE FINALLY GONNA GO SING K TMR. <3
and we managed to persuade shulin and cas to go. WOOHOOO~!!
I SRSLY VERY QI DAI CAS AND SHULIN SING SIA.
AND SIHWEE!! =DDD

alright, audi time. <3

2008-12-13T04:44:00.002+08:00

overslept today LOL.
was supposed to meet yol at 11.15 and sh at 11.30 at pp
hurhur =X
I FEEL BAD OKAYYY? LOL
wanted to go pp that alot tuition centee de building see if theres any job that needs flyer distributor
haha but in the end we nvr go check
cause its like tuition centres have STUDENTS and even if have job,
also the student go apply first -.-

mos burger.
PP MOS BURGER HATES ME.
my unagi rice burger fell apart.
no fries for my set meal.
no chilli.
no put-chilli-de-saucer-or-whatever
D:

after that took 15 and went eunos for the toy promoter interview.
SO ULU. LOL
but the toy manufacturer is SHENG TAI LEHHHHH HAHHAAH
me and yol so high luh
budden she say if got event then will call us
cause we want to work tgt which is impossible lol

The Cathay after that.
took my phone to motorola service center.
-____- queue. queue. queue.
then went ps de daiso walk walk buy my 2$ beeg beeg mirror <3
after that went back cathay to look for yol's classmates since they were having class outing
haha. i think one guy look like yong sheng. HAHAHAA.
forgot his name sia. =X
then went back ps again to take mrt =____=

went yishun after that to look for sihwee ^^
WAHLAO. NORTHPOINT IS USELESS.
have nothing de -.-
i think last time i go de is not northpoint. LOL
looks similar but its different >.>
and soooo, we waited till like 9.10 then go in swensens.
me and yol were like SOOOOOO hyper can.
cause yol scared sh will see her
LOL
SH SO DAO. HAHA
see her walk here walk there
pour ice water clean tables
so kelian. D:
BUT SHE DAO-ED ME FOR ALOT OF TIMES. =[
okay luh it was fun.
something malu happened in the end tho.
cause we buy buy buy then i left like 5 bucks? LOOOOOOL
then yol left with 35.
tgt we have 40$.
and our bill cost like 44.80$.
before that we count count count
then the food we ate was 26$.
yol ask me how much left and i said 24$ =_=
when in fact it was 14$
LOL. thats why we say eh ya have extra can eat ice cream
x.x
SO MALU LUH.
but HENG SH there. LOL
tho its because we go see sh den will lidat de
hahaha. my first time 就这样献给了Ms. Yolanda.
=X

audi-ed when i got home.
uhhhhhh, practised 8k.
i think im super weird.
i use right hand try 8k on 70bpm song only have 100k+ points
i use left hand try 8k on same song i got 200k+
wtf?
and the more i practise, the more i get mixed up with the arrows and play worser than previous time -.-
RAWR.
then make me so 无奈. =[

YAY. We're going sing K on moooonday <3
WHOOOOTS =D

had fun today tho :D
I'LL NVR FORGET TODAY.
12/12/2008.
so malu. damn. =.=

2008-12-10T04:02:00.001+08:00

went sch today.
heard 说好的幸福呢 on ipod during bus trip
wth. i dont even know why i felt got emo all of a sudden and thought of him.
bus. ipod. songs.
=______=
rawr.
came back and audi~
LOL. TONIGHT WAS SUUUUUPER HIGH.
with bugget adam and zhipeng.
tho in the end 2 ended up uh not very happy -.-
but anywayyyy, i had fun high-ing today ;D

i wonder what is he doing now.
hurhur >.>
OMFG. ITS 4.09.
NIGHTS PEOPLE.
<3

2008-12-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

AUDITION.

:)

2008-12-04T18:49:00.004+08:00

Went out with grace ytd walk walk see see
watched chihuahua movie. LOOL. it's good. =D
played a throw ball machine at the suntec arcade.
OMG. ITS TIRING LUUUUUUH.
it's worse than the arcade basketball cannnnnn T_T
but we still won in the end LOL.
yesterday was fun hah.

applied for a job at the wang's cafe or something.
waiting for the call.... -.-

today went junhao's house and watched hana yori dango: fainaru.
which is part three of the jap version of hana yori dango.

OMFG. HOW IN THE HELL DID HE MANAGED TO GET IT! !&@*$^!#
i've been searching online and in shops for like SO MANY MONTHS?!?!
its okay luuh, was expecting it to be more sad and touching all those
but turn out to be just so so >.>
kept hitting him during the movie using his house de mop LOL
cause his mother cleaning i think.. then went out,
forget to put back. LOL
so damn funny sia. but abit weird la after watching the movie..
cause we don't know what to do then i stare at him he stare at me -.-
so.. i went home lawl. =.=

played audi for a while and went bathe again.
come out play awhile nia audi jiu server restart -.-
rawwwwwwwwr~
I'M BORED NAO. lol =[

ZEN! Nah! Here's YOUR UPDATE. RAWR.
lol

2008-12-01T23:18:00.003+08:00

OMFG. I'M BORED.
stuck at home today.. -.-
wanted to play audi SOOOO bad today D:
but audi have patch >.> RAWR and it just resumed at 10.30pm when they say it'll finish at 3

watched some new animes.
LOL. Skip Beat!
laugh until i want die. didn't know it's being aired on okto until i wiki-ed it LOL

I'm yours by Jason Mraz.
somehow, i hate this song now. =_=
can't blame me yea? everytime i hear this i'll think about him
Damn you Zen. ._.

okay, i shall go back to my audi.
<33333333

2008-12-01T02:41:00.002+08:00

hmmm played audi with yol and sh for the whole of today -.-
talking to that idiot junhao now lol
make me laugh until cannot sleep sia T_T
Decided to pon cca tomorrow cause just dont feel like going X.X
nothing much today actually.
life IS boring, so what do you expect?

no more hate. no more love.
no regrets. no unwillingness.
yay?

actually i should really thank junhao for all these for the past few days lol.
didn't know he's such a NICE person actually haha
k la, he's seriously sweet. thinking of jie shao-ing to michelle LOL
he told me that zw had another gf but didn't work out too
coincidence? fate? idk lol.

and there's this idiot now singing at the top of his voice
at 2.54am, jay chou's 无双, right into my ear. omfg
sleep luuhhhhhhhhh~
nights people.

2008-11-29T23:14:00.006+08:00

Went out with junhao again today.
emo-ed for the whole day sia X_X
then he there keep trying to cheer me up but also like no use like that.
feel so bad for him lol =X

Walked around j8 today..
nothing to shop also.
Everything in Singapore is like all the same >.>
YAY i treated him Kfc today -.-
eh! it's an accomplishment okayy?
So nan de junhao will accept treats from people LOL

Okay, officially having a new start all over again.
I should be happy? Idk.
Sat at Macs listening to ipod then hear what song also cry sia =_=
i'm damn useless. rawr.
Junhao say everyone around us thought he bully me then i cry.
LOL. sowwwiiee~ i didn't mean to, really D:
I'm lucky to have at least someone i know by my side.
can't imagine if i'm alone at home =.= womg.

Sighs, mummy calling me pack my room again T_T
I HATE PACKING D: AND WHY TODAYYYYYY~
i really did loved u and i'm still missing u everyday.
but i guess that's how far we can go?
i'm waiting for that day where i'll be able to really forget everything.

found the lyrics of this two songs in my file just now while packing.
they shall be my Favs for this week? haha

再见萤火虫 by 袁耀发
作词:火溟日作曲:Collin
我在风中随着你摆头
跌跌碰碰活在黑暗中
困在迷梦中握在你手中
同一片天空与你相逢

凝望夜空闪动
将你的爱握在手中
就让微风附和在泪中
随着呼吸落在你心中

在我飞往另一片蓝色天空
让我化作一只守护萤火虫
让你黑暗中看到我的笑容
让你看到我光芒降落在你怀中

愿我能找到另一片魄天空
让我送你一只守护萤火虫
再多一秒钟再多给一秒钟
让我再多陪一分钟
再见吧萤火虫

我在梦中看到的不同
从前的痛飘进我梦
过去的迷梦和你的面容是多么冲动那么激动

凝望夜空闪动
将你的爱握在手中
就让微风附和在泪中
随着呼吸落在你心中

带我飞往另一片蓝色天空
让我化作一只守护萤火虫
让你黑暗中看到我的笑容
让你看到我光芒降落在你怀中

愿我能找到另一片魄天空
让我送你一只守护萤火虫
再多一秒钟再多给一秒钟
让我再多陪一分钟

亲爱的你在哪里 by 袁耀发
作词：稻草人作曲：稻草人

我最亲爱的你怎么了别不吭一声就离开
作词：稻草人作曲：稻草人
这样我会不知所措
如果我真的犯了不可原谅的错
请直接告诉我我还可以能够为你做甚么

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里
在哪里怎么能放弃
才好不容易费尽力气
我们才终于在一起

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里在哪里
别轻言放弃早和你约定
不管哪里
不用怕有我一直在陪你

我最亲爱的你怎么了
别不吭一声就离开
这样我会不知所措
如果我真的犯了不可原谅的错
请直接告诉我
我还可以能够为你做甚么

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里
在哪里怎么能放弃
才好不容易费尽力气
我们才终于在一起

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里在哪里
别轻言放弃
早和你约定不管哪里
不用怕有我一直在陪你
如果分开是上天注定
喔别在抱怨你自己无能为力

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里在哪里
怎么能放弃
才好不容易费尽力气
我们才终于在一起

亲爱的你在哪里哦在哪里在哪里
别轻言放弃
早和你约定不管哪里
不用怕有我一直在陪你

2008-11-29T12:17:00.002+08:00

came home at 4+am yesterday.. X_x
went to hospital with mummy for checkup in the afternoon
WOMG, WE WAITED FOR LIKE 4 HOURS+?!
Dint' know that the hospital was sooooo uber "popular" >.>

phone died so took mummy's phone.
wahpiang, i hate nokia phones -.-
Sending one message was like sooooooo lag.
Oh, and there's this Jiahao guy in audi.
He lives like just one bus stop away from me only luuuuhhhhh
=D=D=D=D LOL.
First time know people live soo near to me de xD

Went to look for junhao after hospital at cineleisure.
and we went movie marathon-ing. LOL
cause i go there see see,
soo many i want watch de luh! xD
=.= how come the last time i go with ~~him~~ is like NOTHING interesting to watch.
rawr!
Wahaha, he paid everything again >.>
Gosh, he's just fucking rich -.-
Luckily junhao was wearing a jacket..
inside soo uber cold can? or maybe its because we watch two movies LOL
I was messaging and my hands were like trembling~~~~~

After that went for overnight KBox until 6 that one,
or whatever its called.
'cause christina they all come find us and wanted to sing song.
Wahlao, they go inside where got sing song =___=
all drinking beer and playing sia x.x
jiao huai xiao hai zi D: lolol
so in the end only me and wenhui singing -.-
And for some STUPID reasons, wenhui kept singing 我爱的人 -faints-

Couldn't take the sleepiness so went off at 3 plus.
Wah i tell junhao then his face suddenly black sia -.-
so scary~
but anyway, he also fetch me and wenhui go home. LOL
Wenhui got off at paya lebar then after she got off hor,
the taxi driver talk talk talk non-stop sia.
I want to sleep for a while also cannot =.=
Reached my house after like 999 hours..
actually wanted to go meet jiahao de..
cause he also at his house de void deck there
then junhao insisted want see me go up wth -.-
Rawr! okay la, also wei le wo hao maa~ =[

Didn't know he can be quite sweet at times too lol
he looked like those joker joker type,
then people will bash him up that kind
actually a.k.a, qian bian de. LOL
had lotsa fun tho xD

wanted to pei jiahao audi for a while de la,
cause i promised him i'll go find him tonight LOL
then in the end also never.
he also uber bored at void deck.
and i was very sleepy le so never lor.
Sowwwwiee~ =[

Hmm, tomorrow's book out day?
i should end off everything huh?
Had a dream today morning, or just now?
everything went back to normal and i was happy in that dream.
-.-
Dreams. hurhur.
Well, i'll pretend that nothing has happened and continue being happy with him.
and that is IF i even get a reply.
Pathetic huh?
How did i become so pathetic, i wonder.

一直很安静 by 阿桑

空荡的街景
想找个人放感情
做这种决定
是寂寞与我为邻

我们的爱情
像你路过的风景
一直在进行
脚步却从来不会为我而停

给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名

你说爱像云
要自在飘浮才美丽
我终于相信
分手的理由有时候很动听

给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回音

给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘分是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情

2008-11-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

just had a shower. whoa refreshing~ =D
decided to pon tomorrow de class barbeque. =X
cause after going hospital should be abit late le bah,
If junhao still out walking then go find him lor..
anyway, i havent seen him ever since we went out like months ago -.-

was playing Ams in the afternoon lol
met some old friends, and yay! everyone's coming back XD

i know im missing him tho.
and its past his lights out again.
i should set things back like before again huh?

2008-11-27T12:30:00.002+08:00

Morning! I'm bored early in the morning -.-
Played audition till 4am+ yesterday O_o
but didn't feel tired at all when i go offline lolol
Two more days to his block leave =.=
whatever.

Going hospital on friday then having class barbeque after that.
but received Junhao's sms in the morning to go out on friday with him and the others -.-
whoa, suddenly so busy T_T
Soo... barbequeq = pangseh jh.
Go out = pangseh class + save 8-10$ LOL
see my mood first luh okay? =D
but go out confirm he will ask this ask that so most probably i'll ps him.
LOL. ^^
alright, gonna go audition again since i'm fking bored.

2008-11-26T23:00:00.008+08:00

GOT PANGSEH-ED BY MICHELLE TAN YING TING TODAY.
lol. whoa. so big sia. haha
Okay, so michelle forgot to she had to send her friend off today -.-
Heng yol never say she dont want go liao ;D

Hmm, met yol at kebangan then went to Marina Square.
wanted to watch the chihuahua movie but eventually,
we ended up at Kbox after we walked past it. LOL
So we sing sing sing till 5pm.
whoa okay didn't believe yol that 我爱的人 is saddening at first,
then sing halfway jiu.......
and right after that song was 我不难过 =__=
bullshit. lol. where got 不难过 >.>
Had fun tho :D

BUT BUT BUT I TELL U
MARINA SQUARE SERVICE DAMN BAD SIA.
Nobody to bring you in to your room de.
and there is like turn turn turn and turn, like maze like that.
And we ended up in a ulu corner of Kbox. =.=
the time slot was from 2-5pm too.
actually is till 7pm de lor.. dont know why become 5pm

walked to Suntec after that ..
went in Toy'R'Us to see if got empty job slot.
asked the person at the customer service then she straight away give us -______- face
=( so fieeerrrceee~

wanted to go eat the egg tarts there and see got what thing can buy..
shun bian buy yol's bling bling. lol
kk la, the egg tarts quite nice xD
I ate orange chocolate and mushroom chicken egg tart.
was expecting orange or something at the bottom but in the end also dont have -.-
only have the chicken underneath lol
but not bad not bad :D

went to the arcade too.
OMG THE CHIP AND DALE SO BIIIIIGGGGGGG lol
two jackpot prize from the push-sweets machine -.-
saw the DDR machine in a ulu corner sia
Sighs. ddr again >.>

after that we jaywalked from tower five to tower one,
then from tower one there jay back again.
we keep crossing those BIG BIG roads luhhh =X
then got this China woman ask us where is bus 36.
HENG I JUST NOW BEFORE JAY I SAW THE BUS STOP STAND SEE WHAT BUSES ARE AVAILABLE. LOL

Went back walk walk to buy some stuff at marina again.
applied at the jigsaw world or whatever for sales assistant.
SO MANY APPLICATIONS -.-
but i think me and yol will have a chance?
'Cause we're like almost everyday can work,
then the application before us only can work on sat and public holiday.
how to fight with us like that? heh xD

saw those cute monkeys EVERYWHERE.
Gosh.
Why can't i stop thinking about him -.-

Decided to go pasir ris and buy some earrings. LOL
yep, we travelled half of Singapore today.
Kebangan>City Hall>Pasir Ris. o_o
Went to arcade after that and played bishi bashi.
MY SKILLS DROPPED T_T
everytime also i last D:
Then Yol saw her friend Serene at the Hall of Fame there.
cause we have to take a picture after we finish the game lolol
Some guys were looking at us play la,
and yol thinks that we looked like pros to them. =D

after that was DAYTONA!! =D
HAH MICHELLE, WE WENT DAYTONA-ING XD
okay -.- skills dropped too lol
could only make a few successful drifts.

bought bubbletea and sat bus 17 home and
YAY YOLANDA PEI ME SIT BUS HOME =D
chatted and there was this couple who sat infront of us
cause me and yol were talking about audi hacks etc.
think they also got play ba haha
Alright, gonna play audi later on.

Thank you yol for pei-ing me whole day! ;D
Had lots of fun today =D
AT LEAST BETTER THAN THAT MICHELLE TAN.
lol, okay la. Don't bully michelle, later she call and scold me D:
Whoa i pangseh-ed my audi friend for 3 straight days.
Feel so guilty... lol he ditched his ex-gf for me then i pangseh-ed him for three days sia =X
Alright, i'm still gonna go try out that audition hack. haha

Oh, and my laptop needs to be sent in for repairs probably.
Since i can't use my up and down arrow as well as that / (opp of this) button. -.-
Hai~

It's past his lights off time again.
Nothing happened, as expected.
Just realised today that Jay Chou was the composer of this song
LOL.

我爱的人 by 陈小春
作词:施人诚作曲:周杰伦

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属於另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我的爱人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恆的嘲笑声

因为爱, 所以爱 by 謝霆鋒
作词:林夕作曲:謝霆鋒

不是为了什么回报，所以关怀。
不是为了什么明天，所以期待。
因为我是一个人，只能够对感觉坦白。
只是为了你一句话，我全身摇摆。

只是为了一个笑容，爱就存在。
那些想太多的人，有生之年都不会明白。

因为爱，所以爱，温柔经不起安排。
愉快那么快，不要等到互相伤害。
因为爱，所以爱，感情不必拿来感慨。
谁也不用给我一个美好时代，我要你现在。

只是为了你一句话，我全身摇摆。
只是为了一个笑容，爱就存在。
那些想太多的人，有生之年都不会明白。

因为爱，所以爱，温柔经不起安排。
愉快那么快，不要等到互相伤害。
因为爱，所以爱，感情不必拿来感慨。
谁也不用给我一个美好时代，我要你现在。
谁也不用给我一个美好时代，我要你现在。

imy.

2008-11-26T08:09:00.009+08:00

why am i waking up so early everyday -___-
trying to get used to no unread messages in the morning,
hmm, i'm doing well :D -clap claps-

Going out with michy and yol later on. Whoooooooooots!
Heng they today free sia -.- but qm....
hai~ think she have photography? or what? idk lolol
gonna catch a movie later on..
almost went to cine sia x_x

Mhm, trying to keep myself as occupied as possible.
Oh! JOB!
GIMME SOME JOB LOBANGS FOR TWO OR THREE PEOPLE DE! =D

Random clicks on Youtube:

Hyori and Miyeon are criminals because they killed their lovers. The guy is their friend. After they come out of jail, they start bounty hunting and turn the people they caught into the police to receive money. When Hyori was hit in the head with the bottle, Miyeon killed a person. Because they work together, they would all go to jail. The police at the end were checking cars for them. They had nowhere to go & they didnt wanna go to jail again. They decide to kill themselves.(this is based on the film "Thelma & Louise.")

Full story version:

2008-11-25T19:14:00.004+08:00

yep. just came back from school.
Just realised that no matter how hard i try to smile
i just cant smile from deep within.
there's ALWAYS something there preventing me from wanting to smile.
Wow it took me months the other time to really give it up.
I wonder how long would it take this time round.
Just can't comprehend and i have no ways to get my answers. Haha?

So.. i'm lost?
Guess so.
a new habit for me to have something to wait for.
a simple message would be enough,
even if the message have just one or two words.
Habits are hard to change,
which makes it soo fucking hard to stop thinking about it =_=
Gosh, can someone just knock me out.

Whenever i'm occupied with friends or chats on phone,
i'm just alright.
Whenever i'm alone,
i'll start thinking about it again. >.>
@$(*&^%$ew#@!##%^&%
URGH.

Had an unknown message yesterday night after i slept,
actually it was from Zen. >.>
Didn't know it was Zen at first and when he said that his name had three letters,
i stared at my phone for a moment.
Somewhere, i was hoping that it was him,
even tho it doesn't even sound like him.
Just how silly can i get?

I wonder if he even thought of me whenever he have free time or before he sleeps.
Hurhur.

Girl, just forget EVERYTHING.
isn't it obvious enough?
Rejected calls from zw today.
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.
But i really don't want to talk about anything related to him at that moment.
somehow, he found out that i had a new blog.
and yea, about him.
Sighs.

Thanks Joel.
sounds weird saying this but yea..
you made me laugh. lol
I can't say my thanks to you over the phone,
i'll sound stupid. -.-

Okay, i'm having mood swings right now,
that's why everything is happening the way it is, right?
-.-
Whatever. Just shut the fuck up wanchin.

2008-11-25T07:43:00.001+08:00

another day passed. silence.
fuck. can't i just stop thinking about it?
you're useless girl.

2008-11-24T18:49:00.003+08:00

Its funny how things turn out in life -laughs?-
Someone whom i thought i forgot about, who have disappeared for weeks or even months,
appeared out of nowhere could even tell that i'm feeling down and cheer me up.
Someone whom i care about right now, is ignoring everything, which makes me feel so silly just because i was worried sick that something had happened to him.
In the end, it was just because that someone probably didn't want to face it? or even me?
Haha, i laughed.

Paranoid? Perhaps. It just happened for such a fucking short period of time.
I've always thought being truthful was the most important matter.
Even if things just don't go right at any point in time,
isn't saying out what's wrong the correct thing to do?
Maintaining silence isn't gonna help.
What's worse are the days of absolute separation.
Maybe i won't even get an answer? Let's just pray and hope..
what else could have been done huh?

Lack of communication; a subject totally worth to explore into.
at least, I've tried.
Perhaps it's ~~karma~~ that i'm going through all these?
Well, i've ignored zw calls..
but after that, AT LEAST i tried to ask what's needed.
He replied. Just wanted to ask me how i was.
Should i be glad? I wonder.

I could have taken another choice and chose to ignore completely,
afterall we promised to not have anymore contact with each other?
Stupidity perhaps.
But it was all thanks to stupidity that let me know what he's thinking about,
or rather, clear his doubts and get things back to the track.

Why in the fuck did i do that? No reasons.
Just because i know the feeling of being casted away at a side,
and being worried if that someone is safe and sound, when her herself knows that its being silly to think about such stuff but just can't stop herself from thinking about it.
And last but not least, to not even get a chance to clear up EVERYTHING.

Oh wow, and now she sounds pathetic just by looking back at what she've been doing.
It's funny too, how things that are almost the same are happening so coincidentally.
She even knows that everything would probably take a fucking long time to reach the other side.
What about all those promises huh?
She's desperate to keep her promise of being understanding.
but He just don't give a chance for this to happen.
Whatever.

Just hope things get right. Someday.

2008-11-24T12:10:00.002+08:00

fuck that. just tell me straight in the face what you want.

2008-11-24T08:26:00.002+08:00

Mhm, just had a shower.. waiting for time to pass and go for school
Feel like smsing him but well, he should be asleep ba.
Scared later phone vibration wake him up.
Just let him sleep more lor.. today booking in le D:

Well had some missed calls from zw after i slept. o_O
But never return his call lol
If there's something important, he'll call again right?
So... yup why bother to return call.

Having cramps today. oww T_T
hmm, hope can see him later on. yep.
Bye. AFK to school >.>

2008-11-23T21:38:00.020+08:00

Aye aye, decided to create another blog for myself after 8341231 years.
Woke up in the morning and went to look for dear.
Met him at cck lot1 de arcade; he was playing ddr ._.
I never knew bedok to cck will take 50 minutes sia and i count liao, 23 stops.
=O
So ubbbbbbbeeer bored on mrt but at least got his messages pei me ^^
Today de mrt also dont know what thing wrong; Keep moving and stopping out of nowhere.
Think because the train run too fast liao ba, run infront of schedule -.-

Okay reached there, first thing see them liao. all botaks. lol
Watched him play..at first wanted to play arcade bball de sia but nvm lol.
Hmm, then went Kfc and drank pepsi.
I also dont know why i say coke when he ask me what i want.
lmao >.> (theres no coke in Kfc de la dummie) ._.
Well, felt a little awkward cause normally is zw buy what i drink what lol -.-
Hmm sat down and listened to him and his buddy uhh Sinyu? or Xinyu idk la lol. then they chat about army stuff.
Not really bored but okay la very funny lol.
Hmm then took LRT back to his house for him to change clothes.
Yep, went inside his house..look here look there lor
Don't know why everyone's house so comfy like that
My house like antique house like that, so... uncomfortable and dead lol.
Everywhere also the brown wood =.=
Hmm, got reminded when i first stepped into zw's house haha
I almost killed his dog can? =O
Scary~ no wonder his dog everytime see me jiu run T_T
Actually i don't know if we're like abit too fast?
idk la ;_;
Saw his sister patting his niece to sleep cause she was crying like mad while she was talking on the phone
Felt so bad for his niece~ Cry until voice like wanna break liao. Hai, kids D:

Went out and decided to take bus to Orchard.
First time taking BUS to Orchard sia, everytime also take train de.
Sometimes i really wonde rif all those things we did will bring back memories for him. =X
Mmhm still awkward i guess? We barely spoke. -.-
Think he must have felt this way too lor even tho he never say.
Perhaps he tired after DDR la. Dont wanna think about it.
Decided to go cine and watch movie
Went there, actually want madagascar 2 de but i never watch 1 before Still remembered I bought like two whole packets then ~~his~~ sore throat still never recover. Cough worsened somemore >.>
But hai~ he cough until like very jialat. =(

Somehow, i don't have the feeling that we're together?
Just like uhhhhhhh.. idk.. going out with a someone who is actually supposed to be closest to me.
Saw couples here and there.. no comments.
Went LJS and ate. Well, i still remember how we used to like LJS, urgh. =_=
A new start girl! Sighs.

Walked around and shopped for a shirt.
Hmm.. Wanted to take neoprint but nvm ba.
Went over to taka, outside raining... Walked under the rain.
Was supposed to eat dinner with his ma and jie but whatever ba
it's troublesome for him to send me home also since we're at like different poles of Singapore.
and thus, i initated to go home myself then he go look for his family.
Said a simple, "Bye bye." -.-
Missed him abit for what i just did but i think that's the best for everyone
cause i think he will send me home la but really very far plusss
he got straight bus go back home.
Actually i also have luh i think, bus no.7 and 14 but didn't feel like saying.

Really want to send him off tomorrow after the funeral thing...
Hmm, still waiting for his reply.
Went and bought lozenges for him to bring into camp for tomorrow.
Don't know if can bring in or not sia x.x
Come back home still got the Shandong trip stuff to do. S-I-A-N.
Reflections, IF project, GENERAL PAPER READING LOGS sia.
OMGLDJWKJDNFASKDWEKJRADWTFMAN.

Mhm, gotta go school tomorrow morning.
Apparently one of the school directors, Mr Tan Ching Gay or Gey's father died.
So qiao sia. Come back from Shandong then he die ._.
Okay, i sound disrespectful but yea..
'Cause Mr Tan hosted us with a UBER SUMPTOUS meal (yea, i mean it. it's heavenly.) in Shandong when he heard that our school got people go there. (tho we had to go to his factory EnGro or something to view for no reasons -.- their like making cement there? what has it gotta do with us sia? Still report to us their annual income, expenses all those etc. =.=)
Yep, expected this funeral thing to be uber boring.

Not sure if there's interview tomorrow or not.
Sian-ded.
Well, I seriously don't believe age matters but well idk.
Didn't have problems in the past lmao.
Sighs. I don't know.
Yup, mood swings of the month again.
I don't really have mood swings but.. idk.
weird. lol
Hoping that everything is alright i guess?
.__________.